..........breathe in this feeling

..........breathe in this feeling

Tuesday, November 17, 2015


I was delayed, I was way-laid
An emergency stop
I saw the last ten seconds of life
I crashed down on the crossbar
And the pain was enough to make
A shy, bald, Buddhist reflect
And plan a mass murder
Who said lied I'd to h.i.m ?

..........and then Venus arose from the S.E.A. Welcome to the divinity of A.S.H

When you finally (or if you ever) make the move as a woman to break free, not give a damn what society thinks and run wild.........it's the most liberating experience. It also gives you a huge sense of respect for the other women around you doing the same.

Ash is a tattoo covered goddess who I have the up most respect for. She juggles being a Mother with running a work hustle that is second to none. If you get born in this world with a vagina, you're already at a disadvantage.......then society tries to pin women down even further by shaming them about their bodies and sexuality.......

fuck that............some of us refuse to conform to that bullshit............. Ash is one

Me: "So you're this inked up mega babe, what do you do for a job?"
Ash: I am a high class courtesan. I am also setting up my online business and agency.

Me: Do you find that people judge you because you are incredibly beautiful and not affraid to own your sexuality?
Ash:No not really, sometimes on social media but I find it more funny and I like to stir the pot when that happens. I love people though and I believe that you treat everyone with the same respect as you never know a person's story. So I try never to be nasty, everyone deserves respect and love... to a point. Sexuality is the one thing that we own, the one thing that we can either express or keep to ourselves.

Me: I admire that and part of what i enjoy about you is that you are so open.....its the people who repress their true selves and hide behind closed doors who are the most unhealthy. So how long ago did the tattoo's start and are there plans for more?

Ash:Its so unhealthy! I started getting tattooed when I was 16. My mum took me to get my first, my tramp stamp on the grounds that I didn't get any more. The artist remembered me and tattooed me without mums permission for the next few. Mum wasn't happy, but my family have always let me be me. I wanted to be fully covered from about the age of 13 so now I plan to be mostly covered. I am not keen on back tattoos and I won't be able to see a back tattoo anyway. So everything but back. I'd love to get something you have done on myself. I love your art.

Me:Oh thats rad!! i'd love to do something freehand on you. the only reason i have a tattoo is because someone was teaching me how to use a gun. Now, i could ask you about feminism, business hustle, travel etc but we all know the main question people want to know is are you single and how does a guy get your attention

Ash:Well we are gonna have to make that happen! I have a partner and he is the sweetest. It's kinda new. He was very persistent and as much as I pushed him away, he never left. He is an old school romantic. He brings me flowers, which he picked and thinks it is weird that I say I don't want flowers from someones garden, but it is very sweet. He opens doors for me and will spend his last dollar to make me happy. Very chivalrous. But I really don't have a type. Although I very much am a 'relationship type' of girl and have had 3 long term ones of 7y, 5y and 5y. I think that having these long term relationships is what gave me the opportunity to grow in my Sexuality and explore me. My best friend is one of my ex boyfriend's and I love him to death. I love my potential partners to have ambition and great morals, beautiful caring souls. Our looks are going to fade so it is important to have substance as a person, and that is what gets my attention.

Me: That's beautiful but cue the sound of male hearts breaking everywhere. its interesting, there is you and one other fierce strong woman i follow on social media.........whilst you were replying she's posted about getting dumped and being heartbroken. meanwhile i'm finally calm and can work because i have a new partner......................in some ways i think its so hard to be an alpha female that we require some kind of back up in order to keep grinding

but anyway

last question

where are you currently. can people see you anywhere. any links to places crew can follow you

Ash: So true. Having someone brings my feet back on the ground. Otherwise id be a billion times more crazy haha. I have an instagram @ashfahy My Facebook page Ash Fahy And my twitter which is my work page baileybrookesxx I will have my website up soon

Haha thanks so much hun! First interview I have ever had smile emoticon

Ash, you've been a total babe. Here's to alpha ladies rockin it and getting paid xx

Monday, November 16, 2015

les amateurs de fin de nuit aiment pas comme les autres

I'm really proud of the woman i've become and the survivor I am.
And these days I say whatever the fuck I like without giving a damn.
I met an electric creature..........
He lights up my life and is my main feature.
We don't conform to monogamy nor are we poly.
We're just two kids who hang out and like to kiss softly.

Saturday, November 14, 2015

La creación más bella es simplemente ser su verdadero yo . Sé fabuloso. Tratar todos los días como su su pasado y apuntalar todas las calles como una pista de aterrizaje


So old mate got some new raps............... even high as fuck and drunk, he's still hilarious! Yo Perth boo thang. Love You as always xx


Friday, November 13, 2015

Ladies Luncheon - Meet Samirah

Ok so this is a tad embarrassing but hey, I seem to specialize in that department

My first experience of Transgender was not what you'd expect..........I left a gay club one night with a guy. We got to his. I got naked and he reeled in shock when he saw I didn't have a dick.......he thought I was Trans. Ironically we both ended up laughing about it, we have remained friends and he's now in a relationship with a gay male friend of mine.

Following that I was working at an Art gallery where I met a stunning brown Trans woman called Katherine. She had been in the original Les Girls with Carlotta. I'd go to her house and there were photos of her and Jean Paul Gaultier everywhere. She had 2 bedrooms just for her clothes and loved giving me all the clothes that she didn't fit or got bored with. I think I own about 20 pairs of shoes she has given me. She traveled the world having affairs with millionaires and celebrities...........she was my glamorous introduction to Transgender Women.

Thanks to an internet connection and a facebook account, I've stumbled across another beautiful Trans woman called Samirah. Ever since Bruce/Caitlyn Jenner very publicly transitioned, i've been curious as to how this has changed things for the community. What I admire in Samirah is, not only has she come out as a woman.......she's not doing it in a safe place, she's transgender in the middle east. I find that kind of courage so utterly inspiring

Me "where do you live and what do you do to pay the rent and afford fabulous clothes?"
Samirah:I live in the middle East in the gcc region. I wish not to mention the name of the country. I work as a çartoonist and marketing director for achieving my dreams. My dream to be me.

Me:How old were you when you realized you were actually a female trapped in a male body?"
Samirah:To what I remember and recall... I was 8 yrs old. It was my first move towards my identity. I sneaked into my sisters clothes and I felt its for me. I felt the joy the happiness when the fabric touched my skin. Although it might be considered an erotic fetish I feel its freedom and your insights giving you thrills of happiness

Me:Have you had any surgery, or do you plan to in the future?
Samirah:No, i haven't got any surgery done.. it is quite unfortunate till now. I always have been living under a shadow of fears, religious intolerance's and x factors towards transgender communities. I have been saving my funds for a better future. YES! i will be having my surgery as soon as I am able to.

Me:Has Bruce Jenner transitioning to Caitlyn made it an easier to be accepted socially as a trans woman?
Samirah:I dont think so and it is strictly my opinion. Its always a brave and a strong move for anyone especially having such a high status. Its not Bruce/Caitlyn , its about the other real brave transwomen who fight for dignity everyday even though they are never in the spotlight. I believe someday transwomen will have a better place, and its always going to tough. But if the going gets tough.. the tough gets going.

Me:You know I am so jealous of your beautiful hair
Samirah:hahahahaha.... its not your jealousy, its your beautiful admiring skills!... you admire the courage and translate it into your jealousy... You are like my mentor.. my inspiration. You are one of the few who will never have Jealously ever.. my mermaid!

Me:"Best thing about being a woman?
Samirah: everything...

Samirah..........shine on lady. You are divine x

Oh Haiiiii

2 things of note happened yesterday.
I had my septum pierced
and a gift package from MAC cosmetics arrived on my doorstep.
Hence enjoy the randomness of below image........

I've had an amazing relationship with MAC over the years. They have supported me continually. I've had the privilege of Djing for them at counters in Syd and Melbs. Every so often their Pr manager emails me to see where I am to grab an address and send me product. I love that they are passionate about supporting alternative beauty. They've saved me more then once getting a an artist to do my face last minute...........i think the hardest thing about leaving my ex husband was simply that the dead shit threw all my MAC in the garbage bin